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Radiohead.
The day i'll leave you, i want you to hit me. As hard as you can. Even if i scream and ask you to stop, hit me! Don't kill me, but hurt me. Please. You're my brother of spirit. And i know you won't care if i suffer. That's why i trust you for hurting me. I want you to throw away all your pain by my blood. I trust you, my friend. I love you so much! And it made me suffer when i heard you punched everyone around you when you felt bad. Honey, listen, you finally can kill me. If it's not enough, just think that the hardest is done. But please, stop hurting yourself! Please! Stop playing with my nevres. Stop making me feel like you're gonna live this world soon. Live and kill me instead. I know you can, i'm sure it won't be hard. Don't worry, if you kill me, i won't be cross with you. Just hit, don't think, just hit...
I hate violence but i love you,
...enough to die...

